getting back into the beat of things

it's so curious how easy it is to fall back into things. or how easy it is to forget something that you know you should do... you know?

i stopped going on fb a couple years ago, but then some ppl from germany fb-ed me, or some ppl from home tagged me, ... and then all of a sudden i remember why it was so addicting. and good, in a way. catching up.

and i stepped away from AIM back in freshman year, but then..i realize i've been substituting that with gmail chat. i actually refused to chat on them up until a year ago, until i realized ... i was chatting on it. pretty regularly. meh, i guess i still find a way to get around it.

i guess the thought of how easy it is to get back into everything has been on my mind lately. i'm nearing the 6 month mark, and i already have less than 2 months left here at work...so i've been thinking about home. especially this week as i've been signing up for classes.

i decided to go easy and only take 14 hrs, two hard classes and 2 eeshy one. yeah. i mean, i haven't been in school for the past 3 semesters (so a year) and i wonder how easy it will be to get back into things.

i also wondered about hours-wise. i've always has trouble getting up in the morning, so i never took 9am classes if i could avoid it. but at work i have to get there at 9am, and i've been able to wake up regularly at 8:30, further so, i find that sometimes i even wake up before my alarm clock after just 7 hrs of sleep. i mean, maybe sometimes things do change. besides, i'm getting tired earlier, and can't stay up as late as i used to be able to. maybe some things do change.

oh, so i have the option, on friday, of having either:

M:: 11-12
T: 9:30-11, 1:30-3, 3:30-5
W: 10-11, 11-12
R: 9:30-11, 1:30-3, 3:30-5
F: 9-11, 11-12

M:: 11-12
T: 9:30-11, 1:30-3, 3:30-5
W: 10-11, 11-12
R: 9:30-11, 1:30-3, 3:30-5
F: 11-12, 1-3

i like the thought of being done by 12 on mwf. however, the time to wake up for all the days are a bit different - 9, 9:30, and 11.

i like the thought of not having class until 11 on friday because i have XA on thursday, so i might be up later doing hw and such. that being said, i have found out from work that i get really sleepy after lunch (or maybe it's just because i eat big lunches here), so having class after unch also does not seem to bode well.

i guess a lot of this is just about how much i've learned about myself, and i guess how much it holds true.


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on another note, people have been telling me i look sad lately, and asking me what's the matter. i think it's just my thinking face. i mean, i've been trying to live without regret, and i haven't had any. not really. i just...think. :/ i did tell myself i would stop trying to overthink. heh... no, i didn't overthink that one. i guess i just think about other circumstances.

i don't know what i want exactly...i wonder if i ever will. probably not. i guess i'll probably stop caring about it in the future, or more like realize it's not important. but i mean, it's what i want, how can that not be important? hm, not phrasing it right...

(yeah my english has gotten considerably worse lately, must be the 6 month mark. aghhh and my typing is officially confusing because of the german keyboard as well...)

... oh i don't know. i should have just stoped with, i don't know what i want.

yeah, someone asked me what i wanted to do, or "what have you always wanted to do"... and i couldn't think of anything, i mean i thought of lots of tiny things, like eating out with mmy parents, hanging out with friends, etc. but nothing major like go visit this place, or skydive, or... anything.

gagh just blabbing now. blab blab blab... i think i said a year ago i'd try to write more poetically, hahaha. oh funny me.